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  • “I was failing everything I did because of how we were. I know now that we weren’t meant last as long as we did but I don’t give up on anything. So, yeah we lasted longer because I wouldn’t give up and move on. Knowing that I should’ve walked away long time ago, hurts because I didn’t want to lose my best friend and other half. I know now that I should’ve because we could still be friends. It wouldn’t have ended near as bad.” I say into Jake’s voicemail. I was relived that he didn’t pick up but at the same time i wish he did. “I’m sorry. I hope you are doing okay and will find the girl right for you. Bye Jake.” I hang up before the sobs take over. I look over at his sister, who is smiling at me.
    “You did the right thing.” I weakly get up from the couch and head to my room to start packing. It was three hours after I left that voicemail, that I heard back from Jake and my heart broke even more.
    “Skylar, I’m so sorry please don’t leave me.” Was the voicemail he left. He was crying. After I listened to that message for the sixteenth time there was a knock on the front door.
    “What do you want, brother?” The anger seeping into Justice’s voice.
    “Please let me see her.” His voice sounds so broken.
    “Why so you can hurt her again?” Justice says.
    “I didn’t mean to hurt her. It was all my fault. I know that. Please let me talk to her. You know better than I what its like to lose the one you love.”
    “I LOVE HER TOO. She’s not just leaving you! She is leaving me too.” Justice sobs. This is the first time I’ve heard her upset over me.
    “Why?” Is all he had to say when he looked past her and seen me. I stealed myself.
    “Because we aren’t meant to be.” I say stepping up to them. Justice looks at me and hugs me sobbing. “You are a werewolf and I am not. I found my birth parents. I am not human either. But what I am is something your pack would never accept.”
    “I don’t care what they will accept or not. I love you.” He says
    “I was told to get off pack lands by tomorrow night. Because in five days I will start the change into a vampire. My birth parents have set up a foundation for me to take over in three years. If it wasn’t for living with werewolves I’d know more about what is going to happen. So yes I’m leaving.” The tears rolled down my face as I finished. Jake took a step back as if I was resolving. “This is goodbye.” I shut the door holding Justice tighter as we both sobbed. I pull away and walk over to my stuff. “I really do love you. Your like my sister and it is killing me that I have to leave, but its safer this way.” I sober at the thought I could kill them when my change starts. “Its time for me to leave. It’ll take a good four days to get to them. I want a day there before my change starts. I love you. And I will let you know I got there safely. If you don’t hear from me in five days, call this number and let them know who you are and you want an update on me.” I hand her my mothers number. “She knows who you are and how much you mean to me. If anything happens to the pack you and your brother have a place to go. All you have to do is call that number.” I walk to the back door because Jake would be standing by the front door. I know that there isn’t anything I can do to lessen the hurt for them. So I walk out the back door.
  • Being the only child for an Alpha family is the best thing but being a
    female and being the only child for an Alpha family isn’t good. Yeah, I know
    that being a werewolf and all that is cool, but I didn’t get the alpha gen. So,
    me becoming Alpha isn’t going to happen. Seeing as I am an omega. At the same
    time, I am the only child of the incredible and powerful Alpha. My name is
    Summer Marie. My mother died giving birth to me. Yes, my Father should’ve died
    when she did, but they weren’t fully mated yet,, meaning he didn’t die with her.

    I guess that was a good thing, but I will never really know
    because he hates me. I moved in with my grandparents because he couldn’t stand
    looking at me every day. He did raise me until I was about six, when “the Alpha
    gen” starts showing in alpha kids. When I didn’t show it, he tossed me aside
    like lousy food. He only talks to grandpa when they call him. I am at the top of
    the food chain as well as the bottom. I wish my mother was still here. I have
    heard that I look a lot like here. Grandma cried when I tried sixteen and
    didn’t shift. I could feel her pain and sadness. I can feel everyone’s pain and
    sadness when they look at me. When I go to the movies, I feel everyone’s
    emotions. Grandpa says that it is a gift, but I don’t think so. I can’t even
    tell what my own emotions are. My great-grandma says that it will take practice
    to tell the difference between my own and someone else. I am not on an easy
    path with this “gift.” Trying to know what to do at school is even more
    challenging.

    The boys that come near me, I can feel their hatred and the
    discus towards me. They talk to me because they feel that they have to because
    of my Father. Only if they knew what my own Father thought of me, they wouldn’t
    even look at me. It’s easy putting a smile on my face because I have to look
    happy for the pack. None of them know that I don’t have the Alpha gene. Well,
    most of the kids don’t. I can’t wait to find my mate. I know that he isn’t in
    this pack because I am the youngest child in the pack. I go to my dad’s on
    Thursdays to learn pack stuff, but he doesn’t really teach me anything. He just
    has me sit at a desk doing nothing. So, I learned how to draw. I am really good
    at it. We have had another Alpha come to the house, but I was told to stay away
    from them. He doesn’t want them to know about me. What did I do so wrong that
    he wants nothing to do with me?

    “Summer,” My grandma calls up the stairs.

    “Coming” I grab my sketchbook and run down the stairs with
    my long blonde hair flowing behind me. “What’s up, grandma?” I asked, walking
    into the kitchen. I stop in my tracks, seeing my dad sitting at the table.
    “Hello, father.” He looks up at me, and all I see is pain.

    “Hello, Summer.” He says quietly, “Mother, are you sure she
    should be in this?” he asks shortly.

    “Yes, Jack. You need to get to know your daughter. She is
    talented. She is smart and brave. Plus, she has a gift that can help you.” She
    says, smiling at me.

    “What do I need to do?” I ask, void of all emotion. Her
    smile fades.

    “Summer, sweetie, isn’t this what you wanted? To get to know
    your Father?” She says softly.

    “I want him to want to know me, not be forced to know me. I
    will do this because the pack needs me, but I am not doing this to get to know
    him.” I take a deep breath. “He had his chance. I go over there every Thursday,
    he doesn’t even talk to me anymore. I do all the talking if there is any
    talking.” I say. “Now, what do I need to do?” no one said a word, but I could
    feel all the pain in the room. The tears start forming in my eyes. After about
    ten mins no one talked. Jared walked into the room,

    “Mom, you wanted me?” he says.. “Hey Summer, you okay?” his cheerful
    voice makes the tears fall.

    “I can’t take the pain in this room. I need to go,” I say.
    “But the pain is too much, and I can’t move.”

    “Please carry her to the living room so she can sit and
    draw, please?” her voice cracks. As he walks away with me. “She can’t feel
    everyone’s emotions. She is an empath. She is critical. She can help find the
    trader in his pack. Hell, she might even find her mate.” Grandma says with so
    much fear in her voice. “She needs her father.” The pain and sadness all there,
    just like the day he dropped me off in their care.

    “Uncle, why does he hate me?” I ask as he sits me down.

    “Summer, he doesn’t hate you, he loves you to the point it
    hurts, but it hurts seeing your mother. You look just like her.” He says, patting my head. “I’ll go talk to him. I love you.”

    “I love you too,” I say, turning to my current piece of
    work. I smile, looking at the picture of my mom that I am working on. I start
    working on the hair tuning the voice out, but the emotions don’t leave. The anger,
    Sadness, Guilt, and Tiredness.

    “Summer,” Jared says, sitting next to me. “We would like to
    talk to you.” I look up and see my Father and Jared sitting next to each other.
    My Father looks everywhere but at me. I raise an eyebrow. “Don’t we, Jack?” He
    finally looks at me and nods. “We need your-”

    “I want to hear it from him,” I say as the shock shows on
    Jared’s face. Jared nods and looks at my Father, who is still staring at me.

    “Jack?” Jared says.

    “She looks just like her. Oh my god, I miss her so much.”
    The pain is so much more than usual. He sobs, putting his head in his hands.

    “I’m not her.” I sob, unable to keep it in. His head snaps
    up. It’s no longer my Father in control. His wolf is.

    “Summer?” he asks, scared.

    “Yes, Justin?” I ask as the pain starts leaving. Whenever
    Justin takes over, the pain from my Father disperses. I know Justin more than I
    know my own Father. He gets up and moves in front of me.

    “I’ve missed you, but now isn’t the time for that. I need
    your help. The blood-moon pack is in trouble. The pack has a traitor in their
    ranks, and they have asked us to help them find out who it is. I have been told
    that you can do that, can you?”

    “What am I doing?”

    “You will be asked to talk to everyone in their ranks with
    Jared and me-”

    “If I need to tell what they are feeling, then I need to be
    alone with them. I can’t have my Father in the room because of his pain.” I say
    more bluntly than I wanted to, but it needed to be said. He nods

    “We will be outside the door, then,” Jared says.

    “Fine. Whose kids am I pretending to be?” Justin growls.

    “Mine.” He says

    “That’s kind of hard when they have been here. How many
    times and never met me?” I asked, staring into his golden blue eyes.

    “We have that all figured out,” Jared says. “You have been
    living with your grandparents because you needed more care that one person can
    give because of your gift.”

    “Fine.” I huff. “When do we leave?”

    “In a week,” Jared says, putting a hand on my dad’s
    shoulder. “Which means you and your dad need to be around each other more.” The
    pain slowly comes back. I reach out towards my Father as his eyes return to
    their light blue. “Jack, you okay with that?” he slowly nods, still looking at
    me.

    “She has my nose and eyes.” He softly says.

    “Let’s start over?” I ask, putting my hand out. “Hi, my name
    is Summer Marie.” He laughs.

    “Hi, my name is Jack Marie.” He says, taking my hand. The
    pain still there, but at least we are getting somewhere. He looks down and my
    book. “What are you doing there?”

    “I’m drawing. Nothing big.”

    “It looks like Carman. Is that who it is?” I nod.

    “I can’t seem to get the hair right, though.” I close the
    book “So, how do you like being Alpha?” I look up at him.

    “It’s hard, but I like it. I’ve missed you running around
    the house.” He says.

    “Can I ask something?” I say, looking down at my book.

    “What’s the question.” He says, making me look at him.

    “Where’s mom’s grave?” I see the hurt in his eyes. “We use
    to go there all the time, but grandma and grandpa wouldn’t take me there
    because it was our place,” I say softly. He grabs my arm and pulls me to my
    feet.

    “Follow me.” He says sharply. “Mother,” he hollers. “Why
    haven’t you taken her to Carman’s grave?”

    “Because we knew that is where you do all your work, and
    it’s hard for you to be around Summer. We wanted her to blame us and not you
    for you not being there.” Grandpa says, walking down that stairs.

    “Take her there, son.” She says, walking out of the kitchen.
    He nods and drags me out of the house. Everyone around is now looking at him
    drag me towards the packhouse, but we don’t go inside. We make a sharp left
    before getting to the stairs. We stop at a tree with my mother’s name carved
    into it. There was a little shack.

    “Do you really do your work out here?” he nods.

    “This is where your mother is.” He says.

    “Why isn’t she by the house?” I ask, and he smiles.

    “She hated being inside. So, when she died, I had her placed
    her. The tree was planted here two months after you were born.” He says,
    looking up. “Are you sure you want to help us?”

    “It’s something I have to do,” I say, his head snaps towards
    me.

    “You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to.”

    “Look, I know I need to do this because the pack needs
    someone to help us when we need it. I’m the only one that can do this. So, I must
    do this. I want the pack to have help when we need it. That’s what I want.” I
    turn and walk to the packhouse. When I get to the steps, I run into the house
    all the way to my old bedroom. I fall onto the floor right in front of the door.
    “Mama, why did you have to leave?” I sob. Someone wraps their arms around me.

    “Hey, please stop crying, Beautiful.” A soft voice says. I
    lean into his chest. As I touch his skin, sparks fly. I gasp. I need to get out
    of here. I try to move away from him, but he tightens his grip on me.

    “Please let me go.” I sob.

    “Xavier,” my Father growls. “LET MY DAUGHTER GO.” He just
    growls back and pulls me closer into his chest.

    “Daddy, go. I’ll handle this.” I say quietly. He shakes his
    head no. “My mate won’t hurt me,” I say, and he stops growling.

    “Mate?” he asks. I nod. He walks over to us, making Xavier
    growl more. “Xavier, let me hug her, please?” he sounds so broken. And the
    guilt overwhelms me, and everything goes black.

    Xavier’s P.O.V.

    As I am trying to wake her up, I notice that her Father
    isn’t doing anything but stare. “If you want to help her, then find someone or
    something that can wake her up. I need her.” My voice breaks at the end.
    Everything going on with my pack I can’t go through losing my mate when I just
    found her.

    “Son, everything will be okay. She will wake up when her
    heart heals.” An old woman says, walking up the stairs.

    “Heals? What do you mean?” Alpha Jake asks, looking even
    more crushed.

    “Look, son, she never truly healed from Carmen’s Death. Just
    like you haven’t. Yes, she didn’t know her mother, but she still lost
    something. She lost her mother, something that you haven’t. Yes, you lost your mate,
    but she lost something that she never had, and everyone tells her about Carmen.
    Hell, she even looks just like her. So, how can you look in the mirror and see
    someone you never met and think that’s you?” she looks at me, holding her.
    “You’re Xavier Willason, The Blood-Moon’s Alpha-to-be?” I nod, and she sighs.
    “And her mate?” I nod again. “I told you when she was younger she was to be
    mated to an alpha. She didn’t need the Alpha-gen.” she turns and stairs walking
    down the stairs. “Xavier, follow me and bring Summer. There’s a lot you need to
    know.”

  • Daughter, I want you to be happy

    I miss you, Mother

    I know this isn’t what you needed.

    I needed you to stay. Like you promised.

    You chose him over us.

    What was I to do? Everywhere he was there. Just like you guys are.

    Are you happy?

    I would be happier if we were all together again.

    Look, you made your bed now you need to lay in it.

    YOU MADE ME CHOSE!

    HE HURT THEM!

    You told me to chose the person that wasn’t making me chose its the better path. You didn’t even listen to what he had to say.

    I didn’t need to.

    You alway assumed the worst of people!

    No I don’t.

    You may not now but you did. You wouldn’t let me have friends that you thought were bad.

    I was trying to protect you! I was doing what I thought was right!

    Tell yourself whatever you need to but what you did hurt me in the long run.

    I’m sorry. 

    Its too late for that. I need to go.

  • I wish I could tell you
    How badly you have hurt me.
    Cutting me out making
    My fears come true.
    I know I had a part in it.
    You said you’ll never leave
    But that’s exactly what you did
    I tried to be a fly on the wall
    I tried to make everyone happy
    Even you, but I needed to do something for me.
    I need to let you go.
    Not everyone Is going to leave.
    Not everyone is like you.
    I’m not, I know that.
    I am happier with him by my side
    I am doing better than I was.
    The depression isn’t as bad.
    The nightmares are back.
    You cause them by leaving.
    Leaving is something that’ll hurt you.

  •  ‘Laying next to him is harder now that I met you, Xavier, I love you, not him! When can I see you again?’ I stare at the burner phone Xavier bought me. It’s an old iPhone that I’ve put music on so James doesn’t think anything about it.

    ‘Babe you know that I can’t see you right now. James will know something is up if I stop by so soon. I was just there two days ago. Just keep lying next to him. He loves you. He needs you right now. We’ll be together before you know it.’ James loves me? NO he doesn’t I’m just his poor wife, he is sleeping with Justice. I don’t love him. I love you, come pick me up.’

    ‘Sarah, you know I can’t do that, Please understand. Kyle needs me, he is sick.’

    ‘I could take care of him. He needs a woman’s care, just like his dad’ I smile looking at the iPhone. 

    ‘Yes he does but you can’t leave. You know this.’ 

    Damn it. I lock the phone. 

    “Sarah, why are you in here?” James asks looking past me. 

    “Just working on my book. I’ll be in bed when I’m done.” 

    “OK. I love you.”

    “Love you too,” I say as sweetly as I can muster. I wonder if Xavier would take me away from James if I was pregnant. I unlock my phone. ‘Xavier, I can only stay here for a little bit longer than I need out of here, goodnight’ I turn the phone off and put it in the desk drawer. I go and lay next to James. He rolls over and starts kissing my neck. I close my eyes pretending it was Xavier kissing my neck. I moan and his hand slips under my underwear and slides into my pussy. “Damn baby girl you are wet. I want to make love to you.” I know if I push him off now he will know something is up so I just nod. He pulls my underwear off and his pants. He kisses my lips and I force a moan. He doesn’t stop kissing me until he slides inside me. I gently push him back.

    “I’m ovulating,” I say, panicking. He quickly pulls out and sits back on his heels. Looking at me with disbelief. “I don’t want to get pregnant. Not with the wine tasting in three months, you know how much that means to your mom.” He nods and climbs off the bed.

    “Here of late, it seems like you don’t want to be with me.” He slams the bathroom door. I head out of the room to my office and text Xavier. ‘I’m heading to my mother’s old place. Can you meet me there tomorrow?’ I hit send and turn it back off and head back to the room. He hasn’t come out of the bathroom yet. His phone starts ringing and I walk over to see if it’s his mother. The caller ID says its Justice. I grab a notepad and write down the number. I hear the toilet flush and I run over to my side of the bed. “What’s up?” He says seeing me sitting on the bed.

    “Are you happy with me?” He looks shocked but nods.

    “Why would you ask something like that?” He’s lying. I shrug.

    “Just wondering. I have a new chapter idea. I need to go get it written.” I get up and walk slowly out of the room. Once I was out of eyesight. I hear him pick up his phone.

    “Justice, baby why are you calling me so late…You’re pregnant? Are you sure?…You know I’ll be leaving her soon. You’re having my baby and she doesn’t want to.” I slowly walk back to my office. I fall asleep on my couch in my office.